long toot, neg?, med, mood disorder Show more
(this is made public so I can boost with my other accounts, but please don't boost yourself)
I'm getting increasingly worried/anxious about one thing. In late December, there was a 4 day period where I felt noticeably better than usual, I mean lot of energy, not feeling like live is useless and isn't worth living... which was pretty cool, but just an exception, nothing too important. 36 days later, for the lasts days of January and the first day of February, something similar happened, 4 days too. Which I still considered an anomaly, but was more worth looking into. Now, we are 33 days latter, and I start feeling the same thing again, so it might not be anomalies but a pattern, which may mean I'm not depressive, but maybe something closer to bipolar/cyclothymic. However, I also started antidepressant 32 days ago, which if I was bipolar, should probably have had an important impact on my mood, but they haven't so far. There is also a data-point that might be of interest in mid February, same mood again, but I had very good reasons to be euphoric, so I don't know if I should consider it noise or important data.
I'll see my doctor next Tuesday, to maybe get a higher dosage of antidepressant as they don't have much effect on my overall mood (however they do have a lot on my sleep, which I solved by taking all in the morning instead of half morning, half evening). I don't know if I should tell her about my observations, as of now these episodes have been only positives, They make me do lots of things I should have done earlier but couldn't... so as long as they do not degenerate in something else, I'd prefer to keep theme as is, but I'm not sure a doc would agree with that.
I have sooo no idea what to do, what would you?